Today I came across this article here
It spoke to me an awful lot as I can sympathise with the author. I used to be that reader who ate books and it was the norm for me to regularly read a book in 24 hours. However a few years ago when my husband’s health took a bit of a turn I lost my reading mojo.
My head space also became not so good. I spent much time deep in thought and worry. If I tried to take my mind off things by reading I found that I couldn’t concentrate. I would spend ages re – reading the same line over and over again, with nothing being absorbed.
It didn’t matter what I tried to read.
Even reading my Bible became difficult. My favourite authors also couldn’t break through this fog that I was going through. Whatever was suggested to read I struggled to finish a book.
Although that was a strange time and it’s going back awhile, my appetite for reading has changed. No longer am I ravenous for a book. A book has to be really gripping to hold my attention, to keep me entertained and enthralled to the end. It’s a rare thing for me to read a book within a couple of days. If I do, you know it must be a good one.
I know that there’s many health benefits associated with reading and it is supposed to be a way of elevating depression. My advice through the dark days is keep trying, and if you can’t , don’t beat yourself up over it. Find something else that will assist in lifting you up. For me knitting became a lifeline.
The other thing I recommend is don’t be afraid to seek out help and speak about how you feel. I know the road is hard and long. There will be good days and bad days. Eventually things will get better – just keep believing this and show yourself some love.
Finally a bit later but here are some pictures:
The last two Shepherds
Donkey who I love and think is rather cute!
Ox who was a bit fiddly to sew up.
The Wise Men’s gifts. I’ve decided not to add anything else to them.
I did try making the star but found the gold tinsel thread hard to knit with and when I tried to make a pom pom with it…….Well it didn’t work and I had tiny bits of gold thread all over the lounge. This amused hubby no end!
Since then as part of my year of making I decided to brighten up an old coat by making some trimmings using the glowworm yarn. I had pink and orange but when I put up the finish pieces up to the coat I realised that the pink looked better.
Here is the finished product:
I was a bit unsure what to make next. I was trying not to cast on another project but focus on the wips. Two of the wips are shawls – a bit complicated to take to Knit Night. The other is a jumper and currently I’m not sure what I’ve done with the needles that I need for the ribbing. Hmm going to have to hunt for those.
The decision has been taken out of my hands. This year is becoming the year of the baby. A friend’s daughter gave birth today to a baby girl. :) Also four of my friends are pregnant. I’ve been asked to make something a little special for one of them. Since the pins will be out I might as well make a few bits for the other babies – and the best bit booties are a good project to take along to Knit Night as they are small and not complicated. Win :)
As you know I’m a Christian. I don’t often blog about my beliefs for various reasons but I want to share with you something that I believe God is doing in my life. It does all tie in with my theme of #yearofmaking.
This weekend in the lectionary the Old Testament reading is taken from Samuel. It’s a well known reading when God keeps waking Samuel up in the middle of the night. Samuel thinks it’s Eli his master calling him and so goes and wakes up Eli saying “Here I am”. Eventually after the third time of being woken up, Eli twigs that it is God speaking to Samuel. He tells Samuel that if it happens again for him to say “Speak Lord, Your servant is listening”.
So why is this passage speaking to me at the moment? Well God isn’t waking me up in the middle of the night but he is putting people in my path who are telling me to listen. Twice this week I’ve been told “we have one mouth and two ears so we need to listen twice as much as we talk”.
With the passage being heard twice at two different services and churches the light bulb has gone off in my brain. This is something I need to pay attention to. What do you learn from taking time to listen to God? Direction. Where you need to go. What you need to do. How you go about doing it.
What do you learn from listening to yourself? Answers.
What do you learn from listening to others? LOTS!
So as part of my #yearofmaking I’m going to make time to listen.