Beautiful I find sometimes well a lot that the trouble with blogs is that so much stuff gets sugar coated. I’ve probably done it on here…..but lately I’ve been thinking maybe I should keep it a bit more real.
As you know beautiful I subscribe to a few blogs. Over the past year I’ve unsubscribe from some of them and I’ll explain why. The theme for this year is journey so as I’ve delved into myself and through my searching I’ve realised a few things. However before I share that and the blog post that caught my eye that started a thought process we have to go back a bit.
Almost seven years ago hubby’s health took a bit of a major wobble. A lump was discovered within his brain. We didn’t know what would happen. During that time I went deep into my faith and within some areas that I had been exploring with God doors became open.
As part of that journey I decided that I should try and be the best wife I could be. So I explored blogs written by Christian Women to gleam answers. A lot of these were written by women living in the USA. Now beautiful if you are American and reading this please do not be offended by the next few lines. This is how this English woman saw them. The blogs were full of white dazzling smiles, white picket fences, roses around the door with meatloaf and apple pie for dinner. Everything was glossy! Everything was perfect from the way they served God to how well the kids were doing at school. Something to aspire to…. or something to be envious of?
Now IMHO the hardest commandment is Thou shall not covet, but in some way I did covet that type of life. Over the past couple of years I found that a lot of these blogs were fuel for my depression and anxiety. OK so there are many triggers but the idea is not to feed them.
There was no point in coveting that life. My life was never going to be like that. Never. Ever. That is not my path. So I took the decision to unsubscribe from many of them.
This blog TBH I hadn’t paid much attention to as nearly every post that I was emailed focused on different studies from the Bible. Please understand beautiful I’m not disrespecting the writer of the blog but I did find that this blog was a bit sickly sweet, but due to the Bible Study (note I never have time to follow) I kept the subscription. Then last week in some respects the sugar got dusted off. This post became real even though within it there’s a testimonial.
As you know beautiful Hubby is still here. There’s is not much they can do for the lump. The lump is very slow growing. He can still work and it doesn’t interfere with the way we live.
One of the things I’m going to try and do is be more honest with the blog and my thoughts. Hopefully beautiful you’ll understand and carry on this journey with me.